" someone i loved once gave me a box full of darkness . i took me years to understand that, this too, was a gift ."
- Mary Oliver . (Thirst)
I was once given a box full of darkness. Someone I loved gave it to me, too. The darkness was actually disillusionment, disappointment, and despair. The box was full of meanness, lies, and deceit. The first thing I did with this box was glorify it. I gave it pride of place in my emotional world. I let it consume my thoughts, my heart, and my mind. Every so often, when I was feeling at my most vulnerable, I opened it up and peered into the darkness, where I would wail and cry in despair, pitying myself for being dealt such a dark and horrible blow. Time passed, and I found myself opening the dark box less often. Sometimes, I was just too busy with other things to spend the time I knew the darkness required. Other times, I simply didnít have the energy to deal with all those dark emotions. Eventually, I was just bored with the dark box and itís perpetual whining. Then came the day that my thoughts drifted toward the darkness, and I realized the dark box was no longer there. For a few frenzied moments, my mind searched for it, but I simply could not conjure it up. A deep sigh of relief welled within me, and I knew the darkness was gone for good. In itís place was a very quiet sense of understanding. peace, and forgiveness, a sensation that I had never before known, but one I wanted very much to store up and treasure. At one time or another, life will hand each one of us a box full of darkness. Itís important to keep that box around for a while Ė but not for too long. Buried deep inside this box is a wealth of insight, compassion, and self-awareness. When you dig deeply enough to reach this layer, youíve found the real buried treasure Ė the true gift thatís hidden in the darkness.
Dear Master! I love your photos. They are beautiful. I have one question. Which you have kind of camera? Which model? What you suggest for me? For example, Nicon, Olimpus, Canon and other. Which characteristic? I think, this is not secret information. Sorry, bed my English.