I miss me, some times when I look back on my memories it's more like I'm recalling something I watched or read in a book and some times I can't even remember. I spend my days fighting for my family to survive and in the end I can't even remember who I was or reconnect with that. My ties to myself keep breaking like a frayed rope, my Cat for 16 years passed on, My best "friend"/twin star has pretty much forgotten me and I never hear from them, and now everyday is a long countdown until the time I can go back home to fall asleep and dream of something else before it all repeats itself again tomorrow. I cried a bit when I read this because there are so many things I miss~
i do actually know what you mean , right now I'm 34 and I miss a lot of things myself. As well I fight for my family to survive and, I don't have much time to do anything anymore. All my photos were taken a few years back, also I cannot practice guitar like I used to. I miss myself and the way I was about life and people but , We both know there are the upside from all of this. We are a part of something bigger now, we are specially evoke to make and be part of a little someones life. And his/ her history . To guide and to learn . Nothing tops that .
Actually, I don't separate it, just my old self, but mostly implying the way of thinking, how I used to see the world, how I used to think...gradually going through life made me realize things that I didn't wan to, things that I was better off not knowing. I miss the me that was untouched by the dirty hands of Society, I miss being pure and innocent, without the horrors that I know now and keeps repeating in my head on and on, like a broken record.