dream beyond words

_{Maybe I'm just trying to hold a rope around your neck, maybe I'm just trying to hold your heart next to mine.
In the midst of so much loneliness in the midst of so much misunderstanding, I think it is acceptable to act selfishly, to think only in me.
maybe it is acceptable that I want your happiness, your misery to be mine and mine alone.
perhaps it is normal to want your words to be mine alone.
and I hate you as much as i idolize, unknown image, whispered in my dreams every day.}