living in the past

i just saw this movie called " lars and the real girl ".
you know , some people think you are special ,some only says that because mostly ,
they are religious and so every single f* one is special .
but there are also , some people that can make this world so much more darker .

today we are not talking about them , cause Lars , see ,
i wish i knew someone like him , and we all could use some .
i once knew one person , and even today , i replay things in my head .
do you think this is normal ?
well , what it's normal . ... a definition . .
Lars ? was he ill ?
i don't think so , i think that we all get lost in here ,
but see , he , he found himself .
the world could really be a little more like that .
the saddest part is that we are not .
no.


never once in my life i've been like this , stuck .
something is awfully wrong .
i wish i knew the things i once understood ,and i was fine living by those rules.
now i just don't know anymore ,i don't see how things were supposed to be .
i keep talking to myself , i hear you , every f* day .
and the saddest part is that too ,
will never be like it would .
this is all like season coming in full circle ,
they are never fully here .
neither they are completely away .
although it seems they are gone ,
a wind blows something that take them back again .

are we living in the past ?
and why is that ?
cause we know that ,
in our hearts , there will be no future .
no future in this at all .

"it's my insecurities that make me watch other people in a way
they're not even aware of themselves
and slowly, although never on the spot,
I am becoming their signs of beauty.
I see myself in the mirror day after day
and even so it takes some time to realize
who I’ve become."

Jesse Fisher: Because it's like saying what if reality is all an illusion,
then there are no consequences to anything, we're completely off the hook...
and I believe in consequences.

Zibby: No, you believe in guilt.

Jesse Fisher: Maybe, but guilt before we act is called morality.